It Matters

I've been so busy trying to handle my business that at times I've forgotten what "tell me how I can help you" means. I was reminded by the thoughtfulness of my teammates at work today - I am surrounded by incredibly supportive people.

I'm not a very private person. I never have been. But this has caused me to put my head down and feel like I have to take on the world by myself. But I don't have to take on the world - and I certainly can't do it by myself. And fortunately my friends won't let me. So if you know that's you. Thank you. Thank you for hugging me even though you know that's risky ;-). Thank you for being persistent and getting in my business. Thank you for sending me messages and cards and gift cards. Thank you for letting me struggle and offering to help. It matters.

I've always had a drive to make someone else's day better. I was the teacher who wanted to make the world a happier place for every student and sometimes it meant a little extra for maybe that one kid. That's why I do what I do. And I know in those instances, like now, it's the little things that matter. 

When people tell me they are happy to do something for me, I have to stop thinking that I'm inconveniencing them. We need each other - that's why God put us all here together. We won't always like each other and we won't always get along. When all is said and done love and respect have to win. I'm learning that.

Cancer is stressful. It's not only stressful for the person who's got it - It's stressful for the person who's taking care of them. It's stressful for coworkers. It's stressful for family members. It's stressful for everyone who wants to help and fix it but feels helpless and doesn't know what to say. But the point is, even in that stress, we have each other. We can walk together or try to walk alone. Thank you for not allowing me to walk alone.