It's Real

Life right now reminds me of one of those action movies that has cut shots of variable speed, freeze motion like the Matrix - everything kind of slows down and the main character breezes through stuff that if it happened at real speed would blur so much that you wouldn't be able to see it...yeah - it's like that. Everyone around me is still cruising right along with the business of life. I'm trying to keep up, but it's like everything is whirling around me while I dodge obstacles and process and observe at a tenth the speed and just try to take it all in. I normally go through cycles of full speed ahead then a little lull, but this is different than a lull - very different.

I have zero control over most of what is getting ready to happen to me this week. Initially I was able to choose my surgeons, but now it's game on. The world will continue to blow by. I'm truly OK with not keeping up right now. All I will do is take the next breath, soak it all in and get better. It's real.