Blessed Beyond Measure

I sat in a waiting room recently and it occurred to me how fortunate we are to live right in the midst of such high quality care. I drove 15 minutes to get to my appointment. Another patient had driven 4 hours. FOUR HOURS. That is the first time I thought about how blessed I am to be right down the road from my choice of talented doctors, surgeons and radiologists. It's easy to lose sight of what is right in front of me sometimes. I can get so caught up in what I think I deserve or what I should posses if only this or that circumstance were different.

I'm tired of playing the what if game. No more. I used to lead worship at church and we would sing:

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

I've always said that I meant it and this medical challenge is putting me to the test. Do I really believe God knows what is best for me? When something happens to me that outsiders see as tremendously earth-shattering, do I believe that God is still who He says He is? Absolutely YES. He has not moved or changed.

I've been listening to Lauren Daigle's new project non-stop recently and she sings lots of things that keep life in perspective, like track 3, "Trust in You" with lyrics like:

Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings
There’s not a day ahead You have not seen
So, in all things be my life and breath
I want what You want Lord and nothing less

When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!

I still don't have a date for surgery yet, but I should have one this week. I have so many friends and family supporting me on this journey - thank you. Continue to pray for Stephen (Woody) and Ian. Ian is just starting to grapple with understanding and he's a very emotionally invested little guy. As soon as I have exact dates, I'll know what I'll need. Thanks for walking with me.