There is a Light

A little over a year ago, our lives changed forever. I wouldn't have asked for it, but I wouldn't trade it. I know we've turned inward to some degree, but we've also reached out and been able to ask for help.

I've allowed friends to see me. Even friends who are nothing like me. I've allowed others to take care of me (as if I had a choice!) and take care of our family. I process every moment and try to live in it, knowing that in a week, I may not remember it at all. I value people more and have become even more of a champion for the success of others.

I've also learned what an amazing gift of a husband I have and how God has uniquely designed our little mini me to fit perfectly in this family He has given us. It's humbling when you are cared for that much when you know you deserve nothing. These two guys have attempted to maintain a sense of order while basically putting life on hold for me twice in a year.

It's hard for someone who has never been there to realize the impact. I've barely left the house for the better part of a month except for a few short trips here and there. I'm just now getting back to work part time. Some days I just can't think straight. Other days I can't stop thinking. Some days we sit and do almost nothing. The lesser side effects of tamoxifen have chosen me, so some nights I just don't sleep - other days/nights I sleep for 12 hours.

Through it all, I can't say thank you enough to everyone who has encouraged me along this journey.
This has been a learning experience, but not a tragedy. You've all helped keep the light at the end of the tunnel in a place where I could always see it.

Thank you