I've been quiet for some time.
I haven't wanted to write.
Because I haven't wanted to reflect.
Good writing starts with solid thinking and reflection. Since mid-way through radiation in March, I've just wanted to push through, get 'er done and not think about anything. Well, I'm awake at 1:00 AM thinking about the past year and next week.
If you've been around me at all during this process, male or female, you've probably heard me joke about the "perks" of my situation (sorry guys). I try to keep it light and find the silver lining, because at the end of the day I am keenly aware that what is going to happen is going to happen. All I can control is my perspective, and many days I need God to straighten that out for me (and he always does).
Next week I start reconstruction. I almost decided against it because I know it is going to be a painful process. I admire women like the founder of bold and breastless, and although I'm almost there, that is not me. I'm hoping to live with this body for quite a while and I'd really like for a women's shirt to fit again.
Thanks for praying and thinking about us.
